I didn't get to celebrate Easter last year. On my way to the celebrations I lost feeling to half of my face and ended up in the emergency room with suspicion of a stroke. It was a terrifying experience and terrible thoughts went through my head. Thankfully I was seen very quickly, hooked up to a bunch of machines and sent for a CT scan. Within an hour I knew that thankfully it wasn't a stroke but Bell's Palsy. Bell's palsy is a paralysis of the muscles on one side of the face caused by damage to the facial nerve that controls those muscles.
I couldn't blink my eye or move half of my face and it felt like I was never going to get better. That was a really hard time in my life. I spent most of my days at home, feeling sorry for myself and being too embarrassed to go out. I did a lot of thinking and realized just how quickly things can change. I never considered to be thankful for small things, such as the ability to smile. A smile was something that was mine and I could do or not do as I chose. Well, this was no longer the case and the one thing I really wished for was to have my smile back. I wanted to smile and I vowed that if I got better, I would be thankful for it and use it often.
3 weeks later I started getting the feeling back in my face and a few days later I was fully recovered. Guess what I did first. I went out and smiled at people. Just randomly. If some stranger looked at me at the grocery store, I gave them a big smile. I smiled the entire time the checkout person was ringing my groceries through. I was so happy and so thankful and I was not going to take things for granted any longer.
It is a year later and many things have happened. If you read my last post you know that I have a sick child and things are sometimes rough. You may also know that I have recently won a trip to Japan to see Taylor Swift in concert and I am ridiculously happy and excited about that. There are ups and there are downs. Through it all I clearly remember last Easter, I look back and I smile. I smile because I have a loving, supportive husband, wonderful, tough as nails kids, an awesome business I have built from the ground up, and I smile because I am able to smile. I will never take that for granted again.
And not we are off to my parents' house to celebrate Easter like we meant to celebrate last year.
Happy Easter and lots of smiles from me and my family to you and yours!